No, I don’t.

No, I don’t miss you anymore.

No, I don’t cry over you anymore.

No, I don’t need you anymore.

No, I don’t love you anymore. – Love doesn’t go away easily, but I’m strong enough, to the point I erased all of you, and your memories, and the memories of your love.

No, I don’t think of you anymore.

So, stop thinking of me, stop coming to me, and stop stalking me. I don’t need to see in places, I don’t need anything from you anymore.

Your memory doesn’t hurt, just makes me stronger.

So to you, I say goodbye.

Mistakes.

In every person’s life, comes at time where they make a mistake. A mistake, that in the moment feels and seems so right to make, but once you see the consequences, you regret every doing it.

Mistake, is a noun, a noun that means an action or judgment that is misguided or wrong.

A judgement, a thought, that leads to an action, which is wrong, or at the time thought to be right.

THAT IS THE DICTIONARY MEANING OF MISTAKE.

Sure, one someone does a mistake, it kind of takes control of us and drives us insane, but nothing is ever solved with a whole lot of anger. Calm down first, there’s always a rational explanation to everything.

I know, this is kind of weird and random compared to my previous two posts, but I’m just in that state right now. Hehe, I hope you guys get what I mean?

I’m sorry if I confused you, you can always ask me for clarifications if you need them!

I love you!

-Q;*

I….

I… I… I don’t know what to call this.. I don’t know if I should call this the final break down, or just the realization that you’re gone…..

I can’t stand being around anyone.

Today, I decided to be, and stay alone.

I’m writing this in tears. Like I said, I don’t know if I should call this the final break down, or just the realization that you’re gone, since I haven’t actually had that break down since you left.. Since you left me with a shattered heart.

A heart made up of lies and broken promises. Of hopes I, at one point believed I’ll make come true with you.

I used to look at you in awe. I couldn’t believe I found someone like you.

How many times you whispered those 3 words in my ear.

“I. Love. You.”

And it always followed with, “I always will, ras omy il ghaly, ba’6il a7ebich!”

Where is that now?

Why did you lie to me?

Why did you feed me lies? Lies that you KNEW would leave me shattered when you left me.

Don’t come back.

I don’t want you to come back.

I never want to hear your name.

I never want to see your eyes, or your smile, or YOU for that matter.

I want you to go the opposite direction whenever you see me coming down somewhere.

Because if I see you, I don’t know what I’d do to you. If I’ll take off my shoe or whatever hurtful object that I’ll  possibly have with me then, and that will have you bleeding for days and keep whacking you with it until you feel what I felt in my HEART. Not only physically, but in every way possible.

Physically.

Emotionally.

Spiritually.

And,

Mentally.

It’s because of you that I don’t believe in love.

Thank you.

One last thing before I go.

STAY.

THE.

FUCK.

AWAY.

FROM.

ME.

And anything related to me for that matter.

-Q;*

Don’t ever think…

I remember when  I first met you, the way you looked, the way you said my name, everything about you told me to stay away but I couldn’t.

I know I hurt you with everything I said before I backed away and left you standing there. I wanted you to come after me…… but even if you did, it wouldn’t change a thing because me and you aren’t supposed to be together. You deserve someone who’ll listen to every word you tell them, and I’m not like that, and you think my life, my world would just open up and let you in. I would’ve given up the world for you, just to be with you, just for you to be my life.

My future, I built it with you.

Even though I loved every second of it, I wish I could erase it, because the memory hurts me so much.

Today, I got a message, someone telling me they saw you. I swallowed the lump in my throat, and drove to where you and I always said would be out little place. I cried, I screamed, I asked the sky, the stars, the moon, the flowers, I asked all of my surroundings, why couldn’t YOU be here with me instead of me here, alone, without YOU.

I miss your voice, I miss your smile, I miss your laugh, I miss the way you looked at me.

They warned me about you…. They told me you were no good, you would hurt me, you were all the same……. I never believed a word they said…..

Even when I said I hated you. Even when I gave back everything you ever gave me, with every promise you used to tell me, I never thought of spending my life without you. I guess I was wrong.

I gave you all my love, I gave you my trust, but I guess that wasn’t enough. So I keep asking myself and people, how could you break my heart?

It was a perfect nightmare….. no one would think it could possibly be a nightmare…. whoever lived it, would think it’s a dream come true…..

Please, take your memory and leave….

I can’t take it anymore…. I can’t keep crying…. I can’t keep dying over and over again every night of my life! PLEASE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! WITHOUT YOUR MEMORY! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but please..

baby please…

darling please…

don’t ever think, for once, for a second, that I didn’t love you…

I still love you…

but I pray one day I’ll stop loving you….

Maybe when I realize all the pain I went through, I’ll stop….

I miss you

I love you

but I’m saying goodbye to you….

Thoughts..

Okay, I’ve been thinking, and I have come to the conclusion of using both blogs!
BUT! This one will be for posting my thought.. Words.. Sorrows.. Anecdotes.. Those things..
Yup, I’m going to do that!:)

I love you! xx

-Q;*

Hii xx

Hello loves! x
I’m on WordPress as well as BlogSpot, but it doesn’t mean I’ll be blogging on WordPress, I’m just keeping it incase I decide on movie.
I’ll have my name, and everything, all I’ll have to do is move:)

I love you all! xx

-Q;*